My husband resigned today. He has said all along (to me) that the 31st would be his last day, and lately I had thought that wouldn't happen. He does not have a firm offer from his old company. He does have an interview this week, and things should move along, but there's no guarantees, much less a start date.
A few days he said to me he was stressed about resigning, because he just felt that he had let his friends down.
I wanted to say, but did not, that he let them down months ago. And more importantly, far more importantly, he had let his wife down. And his daughter down.
He said today that in telling his friends, his colleagues, of his resignation that he did say he felt like he was letting them down, but he couldn't do it anymore. He said 2007 had been the worse year of his life personally and professionally and he was done. They have a plan to build their business to a certain level and my husband couldn't commit to that plan, to the personal sacrifices it would require.
They took it well, it seems, but I wonder once it sinks in if they'll continue to be supportive. I wonder once his affair (again, how the hell do I refer to her? His ex mistress? his little tramp? his ex fling? Nothing seems right) finds out, how will she react? Maybe, hopefully, not at all. I just want it all done.
I did tell him that it hurt me when he said he let them down. He said he knew. He said he had also let himself down too.
Maybe I am too hard on him, because, frankly, I don't get how this was the worse year of his life. I don't. This past year was hard on me (though, stupid natural optimist that I am, there were great moments - with my daughter - this year. I wouldn't trade those precious experiences for anything). I feel like he went through a shadow of what I went through. Maybe that's unfair. But I don't get it.
3 days ago