Tuesday, July 15, 2008

20 weeks

Just hit the 21 week mark, actually, and had the 20 week sonogram last week.

Everything "perfect." The tech kept pointing out things that could be bad - let me look at the heart because often the major vein and the major artery can be switched, ok, nope, looks great. Ok, let's look at the bones of the arms and legs because you can measure differences that might indicate....nope, all fine. Ok, the spine, let's make sure it's not open, nope. It was a running patter and she was quick, so it only got to me a little. Good grief there is a lot that can go wrong.

I think for once someone in my doctor's practice actually looked at and read my history in advance of seeing me, so I think she thought she was being helpful. I just looked at the screen as one fat tear rolled down the side of my face.

And that was it. The check up was just a chat with the doctor. I'm just one of the regular patients. Nothing different or unusual about me at all. And I don't know how I feel about that.


Antigone said...

*Wooh* I can't believe you might be posting in a few months about your newborn.

Even if we're treated as though there isn't anything unusual about us, the reality of our medical histories remains abnormal in my book. I want them to ackowledge that and in a sense validate what I've been through.

CLC said...

I think I would feel very uneasy being treated like just the usual patient. Maybe some of only warrant that given our personal situations, but I still think of my self as high risk even if the doctors don't. How can you ignore what happened already?

Well, glad the checkup went well. Will continue crossing my fingers and toes!

Am I doing okay? said...

did you find out the sex? or do you you wait? or did you already announce and I've forgotten??