I can feel my pulse fluttering along. Skipping, rushing, pounding. Never slow and steady anymore.
My traditional Chinese medicine guy says he can feel the anxiety in my pulse. But then again last month he thought I had a "pregnancy pulse," so what does he know?
I'm not depressed. I'm anxious. No full blown panic attacks, but certainly anxiety attacks, the jitters, nervous energy, an inability to just be. I can't stand to be in my head. I have no patience to do anything, though, except think obsessively about my marriage. The closest I can come to mindfulness is sometimes with my daughter, focusing entirely her. Or, sometimes thinking about the possible new job helps.
I was out, away, all day. And anxious the entire day. Anxious driving home, anxious eating dinner. Anxious now typing.
My sleeping is now better - I might wake once in the night, but generally am able to fall back asleep.
Under "normal" circumstances, I am healthy, robust, sleep easily, relax with no problems (actually relax a bit too much, into sluggishness). Now, I am exercising more than before this all happened (though probably still not enough). I am reaching out to friends to talk when it gets bad. I am writing here.
I have an aversion to prescriptions, though I have a prescription for Ativan.
Any ideas for dealing with anxiety?
4 days ago