So we had a nice halloween with our daughter. Our street is really great and full of kids, big and small, so lots and lots and lots of trick or treaters (12 bags of candy! gone!). Husband went out around 11, and I went to bed. Woke up at 4, and th house was dark and quiet.
So I came down for a drink, and saw he actually is home. He must have crept quietly into the guest room. Guess that sends a message.
I am really and truly just reeling from this. How do we get to a place where he's unwilling to raise his unhappiness, and when he does, it's the nuclear option? It's too late? My brain cannot grasp it being too late. I suppose a few more messages like this and it will.
I am so unsure about the job. I suppose he'd like me to take a job with lots of travel, as that would assure him of more time with our daughter. God, I need my partner back so we can, as we always have, make a decision that was right for our family.
I need more messages. I need some grace in my life.
3 days ago