Whew, there are days I don't want to post. The endless depressing saga is not fun to rehash over and over again. I really appreciate all the comments on the last posting, and everyone is right. I need to withdraw, protect myself, help me.
Right now, I've offered him a thanksgiving plan. He takes our daughter to his parents Saturday and returns Sunday. I drive with my daughter to my sister's on Monday (6 hours) and my sister and I drive together to my parents (10 hours) on Tuesday. And then we backtrack on Saturday/Sunday. Brutal. But I've always liked driving, and have done the drive many times. Of course, with a toddler, it's a whole new ballgame, but having the break of my sister's place will be helpful. My husband had plans the weekend after Thanksgiving (college football game) so it's not like he was going to be around anyway.
We "talked" last night. In quotes because it's the same discussion - my asking why he won't at least give me a chance, him saying he just doesn't want to. I genuinely expect to frame my logical argument and my heartbreak and have him say, you're right, let's give it a shot. I genuinely do. And it doesn't happen, and it's the same discussion over and over and over again, and it's not working.
At least tonight is the return of Project Runway. Simple pleasures.
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