Wednesday, November 14, 2007

next

Whew, there are days I don't want to post. The endless depressing saga is not fun to rehash over and over again. I really appreciate all the comments on the last posting, and everyone is right. I need to withdraw, protect myself, help me.

Right now, I've offered him a thanksgiving plan. He takes our daughter to his parents Saturday and returns Sunday. I drive with my daughter to my sister's on Monday (6 hours) and my sister and I drive together to my parents (10 hours) on Tuesday. And then we backtrack on Saturday/Sunday. Brutal. But I've always liked driving, and have done the drive many times. Of course, with a toddler, it's a whole new ballgame, but having the break of my sister's place will be helpful. My husband had plans the weekend after Thanksgiving (college football game) so it's not like he was going to be around anyway.

We "talked" last night. In quotes because it's the same discussion - my asking why he won't at least give me a chance, him saying he just doesn't want to. I genuinely expect to frame my logical argument and my heartbreak and have him say, you're right, let's give it a shot. I genuinely do. And it doesn't happen, and it's the same discussion over and over and over again, and it's not working.

At least tonight is the return of Project Runway. Simple pleasures.

1 comment:

Trish said...

I just finally caught up on all of your posts. And I have to say, I think it's a good idea to go alone to thanksgiving. And a bad idea that you still want to sleep with him. It won't get him back. It will only make him feel temporarily nostalgic and then guilty. Men aren't as simple as they seem. Trust me. I have soooo been through this with someone once before. I thought I could make my way back into his heart, when all I really did was make it worse. Please. I know you want your life with him back. But you might have to take a serious break from it, to ever get back there. I will be following along....if you need me, you know where to find me!